Breakdown

I noticed how once in a month, I will (must) encounter breakdown. Normally, it started with feeling hopeless, tired. Couldn't be able to do anything despite being motivated and energetic in the beginning of the week. Read about it, stated that there is a mental condition for it, happen due to hormone imbalance for nearing period. I'm not alone, but I getting tired with it. Same cycle every month. This unwanted, uninvited feeling keep coming back. On that day, there's nothing I can do other than let it through. I cry, feeling hopeless/restless, overthinking. I just let it flow. Because I know, and I believe this too shall pass. Recovering phase is the most important and crucial part. Disbelieve because I fell into the trap again. When I finally can get over it, then it come again knocking on the door. The same process repeat in cycle. But I guess that is life. A cycle we repeat again and again. We make mistake then we learn from it. Then we make another mistake, only to be able to learn and grow from it. While in repeating the process, we try to spread happiness to others. Our purpose of life. Everyone has different purpose, different meaning with their life. and mine? Mine is happiness. To create happiness, receive and give happiness. Happiness = kindness, and that's what I want to do for my live. In reality, to be able to do it is not an easy job. But if my heart is big and brave enough, I'm surely can face this. Again and again. =)